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I received an sms from one of the grp members. all the freshies are not going for the presentation today. Tat leaves me and the senior from the chinese faculty left. Cant believe these people. I have a test tml and I'm nt like them. I think dey felt that dey have did smtg and hence dey decided that oh well since I have done my part I can skip tat class and do my studying nw.
Guess wad. i'm gg to do the same to them one of the presentations.
I was speaking to husby abt my relationship with es. i think its quite an appropriate time to do a reflection abt the men in my past.
RK was my first love. I knew him in 2004. we knew each other thru a common fren name PL who was my pri school fren. I fell in love with his personality. He knew and understood me very well. Thu fone calls and dates. We started to grow close to each other. He was a gg to graduate from SP and gg to the army soon. Like any normal boy.
On 14th Feb 2005. We decided to spend the Valentine's Day together. We headed to Tampines mall to catch a movie. After the date, we parted at the bus interchange. That was the last time I saw and heard from him.
After 6 painful months of nightly cries and self distraction. Someone else pushed me to move on with him. He told me the only way to let go of and old love, is to start with a new one. I was attached on 13th August 2005. 6months after I lost my first love.
EL is 3 yrs younger than me. He acts far older than his age. But unfortunately, his heart wasnt as mature as his mind. Our relationship together started out average. like any couple we had dates. The only difference is it was an underground relationship.
things didnt run as smoothly when I was with him. He constantly wanted to meet his frens at Tampines. He showed displeasure about coming to my Hall to meet me. He displayed a 'black face' and told me he doesnt buy it when I teh-bao.
Throughout our a yr plus tgt. The best place he brought me to was Sakae and tat was on the first anniversary. He never once bot me flowers or any nice gifts. He never once planned anything special or made anythig special for me. All I have of him nw, is a cow soft toy, a soft toy rose and of cos my side of our couple ring. I on the other hand, was always giving. My time. Gifts. Company. I was tired. Tired of being the on that was on the giving end and not receiving.
On 14th Feb 2006, I spent the Valentine's in my hostel nursing a mens cramp. When he was out spending his time with his frens or even probably another girl.
I was nothing to him. Everything, every promise was a lie. There were alot of things that he thinks I dont know but I do. I only didnt want to say it out. The last time I saw him was early Sept. We broke up a month later in Oct becos he had a failed business plan which occupied half his mind and he couldnt give me anything. It may or may not be the real reason for the separation. But nonetheless, it was a mutual agreement to go our separate ways.
Till today, when he speaks to me. He speaks with regret. he regrets so much that everything he couldnt give me. He gave to his new gf. She was like a replacement for me.Obviously, I din take any of his words seriously, and I wouldnt possibly be jealous over some material items that someone else had. I believe that the girl he is with nw, is either someone he has been seeing behind my back or either he still meets up with when he was with me. I think he cheated on me.
A person oftens meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it. I nvr once wanted to look for love. Raymond came into my life accidentally during the my A level prelims and Esmond came by me to alleviate the pain in the loss of raymond 6 months later. In the end, Adrian was sent to me I think because destiny has seen that I've been thru enough and its time someone truly worthy of me came by.
I'm glad and thankfully that husby was sent to me. He is my angel. Everything I needed and wanted. He would go all out and do it for me. He made me feel that I was worth everything in the world to him. He made me feel like a little spoilt princess. For a long time in close to 3 yrs have I not felt tat I was being treasured and loved until now.
If my heart was a pie. Raymond would have 3%. Esmond would have 1% and Husby would have 96% of it.
I felt disrespected and hurt. all the effort tat i have put into the proj and survey has come to naught. I did everything. all the surveys, the compilation, the report, the diagrams. In the end? My grp decided to change every single thing without asking me. I stayed up till 4-5am a couple of days during the week I was recovering jus to do the proj and guess wad? Its all wasted. And now i have to stay up and wait for them to complete the report, before I can start doing my presentation slides.
I felt so stupid to jeopardize my recovery and to stay up and do the work. Nw I hate HSS people (excluding Alicia and Zhuangyi of cos). Dey are all the bunch of same pp. The dept is also in my opinion sub-stardard. The Professor doesnt reply emails even after a week. They are pp who are disorganized and cannot enunciate and pronunciate proper english. They only know to follow psychological ethics and neglect that there are also other pp in this world who dun have time to do things the hard way.
If they think dey have 2 tests and dey are doing me a big favor. I'm sry to say. i did the whole proj when I was still on MC. and I have 4 tests coming up. So get in line and know yr position.
Its freaking 1.41am. I duno wad the hell my right neighbor is doing. half an hour ago she had some guy frens talking so damn loudly outside the corridoor. Hello. even if u are nocturnal, everyone else might nt be. In addition, wads it with bringing guy frens to the room so late into the nite. Scared off the terrorist tat ran away jus lock the damn door twice. Nt bring guys up.
Even if i am nocturnal. Its the week after recess, any common sense undergrad will noe this period of time there are pp who need to study for quiz. Damn stupid. Why are some pp so damn bloody stupid and inconsiderate?
Speaking of inconsiderate, the biggest inconsidriant has to be husby's grp mate J. He told everyone in the grp today that for the next 2 weeks everyone has to push away all their personal appts and meet to do project. He even told them to noe their priorities.
Priorities my Knee ah! My husby no need to celebrate his bday lah... J told my husby celebrate getting old for wad, he nvr celebrate for 10yrs already. serious who cares if he celebrates or not. I think no one wants to celebrate with him, nt he nvr celebrate. He has been a thorn in my sight since I learnt of him. He has a filthy air of arrogance that demands everyone to accomodate to his schedule when it comes to doing projs. He sux.
somehow it seems like in a really long while I feel like i'm in dismal and disgruntle. I need to regain my optimism in life. Other than my family, husby, classmates and pp I happen to meet, I wont be making any effort to meet people for the next 2 weeks at least. I need to be alone. I want to be alone.
Posted by Tuesday, March 04, 2008 12:31 PM with 0 notes | add more notes
I received an sms from one of the grp members. all the freshies are not going for the presentation today. Tat leaves me and the senior from the chinese faculty left. Cant believe these people. I have a test tml and I'm nt like them. I think dey felt that dey have did smtg and hence dey decided that oh well since I have done my part I can skip tat class and do my studying nw.
Guess wad. i'm gg to do the same to them one of the presentations.
I was speaking to husby abt my relationship with es. i think its quite an appropriate time to do a reflection abt the men in my past.
RK was my first love. I knew him in 2004. we knew each other thru a common fren name PL who was my pri school fren. I fell in love with his personality. He knew and understood me very well. Thu fone calls and dates. We started to grow close to each other. He was a gg to graduate from SP and gg to the army soon. Like any normal boy.
On 14th Feb 2005. We decided to spend the Valentine's Day together. We headed to Tampines mall to catch a movie. After the date, we parted at the bus interchange. That was the last time I saw and heard from him.
After 6 painful months of nightly cries and self distraction. Someone else pushed me to move on with him. He told me the only way to let go of and old love, is to start with a new one. I was attached on 13th August 2005. 6months after I lost my first love.
EL is 3 yrs younger than me. He acts far older than his age. But unfortunately, his heart wasnt as mature as his mind. Our relationship together started out average. like any couple we had dates. The only difference is it was an underground relationship.
things didnt run as smoothly when I was with him. He constantly wanted to meet his frens at Tampines. He showed displeasure about coming to my Hall to meet me. He displayed a 'black face' and told me he doesnt buy it when I teh-bao.
Throughout our a yr plus tgt. The best place he brought me to was Sakae and tat was on the first anniversary. He never once bot me flowers or any nice gifts. He never once planned anything special or made anythig special for me. All I have of him nw, is a cow soft toy, a soft toy rose and of cos my side of our couple ring. I on the other hand, was always giving. My time. Gifts. Company. I was tired. Tired of being the on that was on the giving end and not receiving.
On 14th Feb 2006, I spent the Valentine's in my hostel nursing a mens cramp. When he was out spending his time with his frens or even probably another girl.
I was nothing to him. Everything, every promise was a lie. There were alot of things that he thinks I dont know but I do. I only didnt want to say it out. The last time I saw him was early Sept. We broke up a month later in Oct becos he had a failed business plan which occupied half his mind and he couldnt give me anything. It may or may not be the real reason for the separation. But nonetheless, it was a mutual agreement to go our separate ways.
Till today, when he speaks to me. He speaks with regret. he regrets so much that everything he couldnt give me. He gave to his new gf. She was like a replacement for me.Obviously, I din take any of his words seriously, and I wouldnt possibly be jealous over some material items that someone else had. I believe that the girl he is with nw, is either someone he has been seeing behind my back or either he still meets up with when he was with me. I think he cheated on me.
A person oftens meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it. I nvr once wanted to look for love. Raymond came into my life accidentally during the my A level prelims and Esmond came by me to alleviate the pain in the loss of raymond 6 months later. In the end, Adrian was sent to me I think because destiny has seen that I've been thru enough and its time someone truly worthy of me came by.
I'm glad and thankfully that husby was sent to me. He is my angel. Everything I needed and wanted. He would go all out and do it for me. He made me feel that I was worth everything in the world to him. He made me feel like a little spoilt princess. For a long time in close to 3 yrs have I not felt tat I was being treasured and loved until now.
If my heart was a pie. Raymond would have 3%. Esmond would have 1% and Husby would have 96% of it.
I felt disrespected and hurt. all the effort tat i have put into the proj and survey has come to naught. I did everything. all the surveys, the compilation, the report, the diagrams. In the end? My grp decided to change every single thing without asking me. I stayed up till 4-5am a couple of days during the week I was recovering jus to do the proj and guess wad? Its all wasted. And now i have to stay up and wait for them to complete the report, before I can start doing my presentation slides.
I felt so stupid to jeopardize my recovery and to stay up and do the work. Nw I hate HSS people (excluding Alicia and Zhuangyi of cos). Dey are all the bunch of same pp. The dept is also in my opinion sub-stardard. The Professor doesnt reply emails even after a week. They are pp who are disorganized and cannot enunciate and pronunciate proper english. They only know to follow psychological ethics and neglect that there are also other pp in this world who dun have time to do things the hard way.
If they think dey have 2 tests and dey are doing me a big favor. I'm sry to say. i did the whole proj when I was still on MC. and I have 4 tests coming up. So get in line and know yr position.
Its freaking 1.41am. I duno wad the hell my right neighbor is doing. half an hour ago she had some guy frens talking so damn loudly outside the corridoor. Hello. even if u are nocturnal, everyone else might nt be. In addition, wads it with bringing guy frens to the room so late into the nite. Scared off the terrorist tat ran away jus lock the damn door twice. Nt bring guys up.
Even if i am nocturnal. Its the week after recess, any common sense undergrad will noe this period of time there are pp who need to study for quiz. Damn stupid. Why are some pp so damn bloody stupid and inconsiderate?
Speaking of inconsiderate, the biggest inconsidriant has to be husby's grp mate J. He told everyone in the grp today that for the next 2 weeks everyone has to push away all their personal appts and meet to do project. He even told them to noe their priorities.
Priorities my Knee ah! My husby no need to celebrate his bday lah... J told my husby celebrate getting old for wad, he nvr celebrate for 10yrs already. serious who cares if he celebrates or not. I think no one wants to celebrate with him, nt he nvr celebrate. He has been a thorn in my sight since I learnt of him. He has a filthy air of arrogance that demands everyone to accomodate to his schedule when it comes to doing projs. He sux.
somehow it seems like in a really long while I feel like i'm in dismal and disgruntle. I need to regain my optimism in life. Other than my family, husby, classmates and pp I happen to meet, I wont be making any effort to meet people for the next 2 weeks at least. I need to be alone. I want to be alone.
Life Rules
1. Everything is going to be ok in the end, if it's not ok, it's not the end.
2. Love more, judge less.
3. Never regret your choices because at some point in time it was exactly what you wanted.
4. If it's not worth it, don't sweat it
5. Be respectful
Five Wish Lists
1. Open my own bakery cafe
2. Be a mummie before 30
3. Go to freaking LA!
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